A Look Back on 2019

2019 was full of ups and downs. But I will not look back on it with any regrets. It was all teachable moments. I had all these goals, both reading and life goals, that I had set, that I wanted to accomplish. Well most of those didn’t get done. Depression and anxiety kicked my ass in 2019. I did accomplish one of my goals. I finished my CMA (Certified Medication Aide) class in January. I am pretty proud of myself on that one. I’ve been at my current job for almost a year and a half now. It doesn’t seem like a long time but I am already feeling the strain of it. I am drained both physically and emotionally. I have come to the conclusion that going to RN route is just not in the cards for me. I will fill you in on future plans in my upcoming blog of what’s to come in 2020. So stay tuned.

At the end of April I met someone who would change it all for me and I did not see it coming. He showed me it was alright to open up to someone. To let down those walls and let people in. Let me tell you though, that was not easy and it hurt, a LOT! Having to deal with all those feelings you had pushed over that wall and didn’t want to deal with. And even though I feel like I’ve lost that friend, that I thought would be there forever, I know that everyone comes into your life for a reason. I know why he was there and I will forever be grateful for him and what he taught me. And because of that I was able to find and learn my self worth. I learned what I won’t deal with anymore. That I won’t put up with the same shit I always put up with in relationships.

Anywho, while 2019 started out rough and got pretty crazy I can say 2019 will end on a good note. At the end of November I met the most amazing man. He took me by surprise. I was at a point where I was done, no more dating, no more men. I was just going to become an old spinster with a shit ton of books. Then boom, here comes Brent out of nowhere and swept me off my feet.

He has been the most amazing person. He makes me laugh and smile. He makes me roll my eyes but smile at the same time. He as been a breath of fresh air. I can’t wait to see what the future holds for us.

Reading Wrap-up

Well this year didn’t go as planned. Oh well. I had a reading goal of 20 set on Goodreads. I read four. But it is what it is. I still read and that is all that matters.

First book I read in 2019. I just couldn’t do this book. It was meh. Very predictable. I didn’t even bother to review it. I rated it 2 stars.

In late January of 2019 I went to Kansas to visit Sophia, my sister from another mother. She was currently reading this book and upon finishing it she said I needed to read it. So I took it home and did just that. HOLY SHIT BALLS! What a creepy and messed up story. The only horror book, so far, to give me nightmares. I totally rated this one 5/5 stars. You can find my full review by clicking the link below. https://adventuresbetweenpages.wordpress.com/2019/02/09/off-season-by-jack-ketchum-review/

So I finally decided to finish off this trilogy. I had been putting it off for so long because I didn’t want the story to end. V.E. (Victoria) Schwab has become one of my favorite authors in the last few years. Everything I have read of hers I have loved. If you haven’t read anything of hers I highly recommend that you do. My full review for this book can be found by clicking the link below. May contain some spoilers. https://adventuresbetweenpages.wordpress.com/2019/06/09/a-conjuring-of-light-shades-of-magic-3-by-v-e-schwab-review-small-spoilers/

And the last and final book of 2019 is….*insert drum roll*…another Schwab book! This was Victoria (V.E.) Scwab’s first middle grade book I believe. She did not disappoint. I was hooked from the very beginning. Of course the story being set in Scotland was the best thing ever. Since of course it is my favorite country in the whole world so far. A half-ass attempt at a book review can be found by clicking the link below. https://adventuresbetweenpages.wordpress.com/2019/12/30/city-of-ghosts-cassidy-blake-1-by-victoria-schwab-spoil-free-review/

So that is it for my reading. Lame I know. Specially compared to past years. But life has been crazy busy in both 2018 and 2019. Not much else has happened in 2019. Just been working a shit ton of hours. Trying to stay busy. I hope everyone either had an amazing 2019 or if not, at least gained something out of the bad of 2019.