An Updated About Me

So I realized today that my 3 year blog anniversary is next month. While I have done life updates now and then my about me section needs some major updating. Over the last 3 years I have fallen in love with some different authors, books and genres. So let’s get started

Basic Info:

Hello new followers! Thank you for checking me out and sticking around through all the ups and downs of my crazy life. I have been a reader for as long as I can remember. It started out with Boxcar Children, Sweet Valley High, Babysitters Club and Goosebumps. At the age of 13 or 14 I discovered true crime. My frist book was about the Zodiac Killer. I was hooked. I spent most of my teenage years reading those kinds of books. I also discovered Stepehen King. It was my Aunt that helped with that. She had a ton of his books and they always intrigued me when I was at her house. I honestly can’t remember which was my first King book. But I do remember starting with the Castle Rock books in my early 20s. Needful Things being my favorite! Anywho we will get more into favorite authors and books in a bit. So besides reading I am a HUGE history nerd. My sister from another misses, Cat, is my history partner. We can talk for hours. My dream job (and maybe one day it will happen) is to teach college level history and do research and field work with Cat being my assistant. While I love ALL history, Medival England/Scotland is my favorite to read and learn about. I also have an unhealthy obsession with things True Crime realted and have been for like 20 years now. I probably know more about serial killers/killers than most ‘normal’ people should know. But it’s all good. I like being the oddball. Let’s see, what else…ummm I love cats, I believe in aliens/UFOs, I believe unicorns were real at some point and who knows there could even be mermaids. Besides collecting books, I like to collect cookie jars, coffee mugs and postcards from around the globe. I like hiking, exploring new places, photography, floating down a river, book shopping, exploring museums and watching movies. That’s all I can think of to say about myself right now. So lets move on to some favorites.

My Favorites:

  • Authors: Joe Hill (who happens to be Stephen King’s son), Stephen King, Louisa May 0Alcott, Sarah J. Maas, Leigh Bardugo, Victoria (V.E.) Schwab, Marissa Meyer, Melissa Landers, Rainbow Rowell, Alison Weir and of course the one and only, J.K. Rowling.
  • Books: Needful Things, NOS4R2, 11/22/63, Little Women, Throne of Glass series, The Lunar Chronicles series, Darker Shade of Magic trilogy, This Savage Song duology, Six of Crows duology, Grisha trilogy and many more.
  • Color: Blue
  • Season: Fall
  • Food: Tacos
  • Drink: Unsweet Ice Tea and coffee
  • Holiday: Halloween and Cristmas
  • Movies: The Goonies, Spaceballs, Harry Potter movies, Don Quixote
  • Ice Cream: Mint Chocolate Chip and Rocky Road
  • Football team: NFL: Packers and Lions; College: Michigan State

That’s all I can thinkg of at the moment. Want to know more just as in the comments below. Thanks for reading and I hope you stick around.

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All About Me

Hey everyone! Thanks for stopping by and giving me a look. I’ve been going back and forth on starting a blog for the longest time. I kept telling myself no one is going to read this. There are a ton of bloggers out there that are probably way more intresting than myself. I decideded to just go for it. Even if I just have one or two readers. I love talking about the books I’m reading or have read and frankly I think my husband is getting tired of listening to me, even if he doesn’t say it.  I have been a reader for as long as I can remeber, probably 30 years now. I like to explore different genres. Just to give you a little background on me I’m going to list some of my favorites below.

My Favorites:

    • Author(s): Stephen King and Louisa May Alcott have been my top favotire authors for 15+ years. As of recently I have fallen in love with Cassandra Clare, Melissa Landers and Marissa Meyer.
    • Book(s): Thinner and Misery by Stephen King and Little Women by Louisa May Alcott.
    • Series: The Infernal Devices, The Mortal Instruments, The Lunar Chronicles
    • Character(s): Magnus Bane, Sirius Black
    • Genre(s): YA, Middle Grade, Adult, True Crime, Horror, I pretty much read anything as long as its good.
    • Color: Blue
    • Season: Fall
    • Movie(s): The Goonies and Spaceballs and of course all the Harry Potter movies
  • Place to read: Outside if its nice or my bed
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Psychopaths vs Sociopaths

So this will be a different True Crime Tuesday blog than I normally do. I wanted to change it up some and honestly I could not think of any one killer, victim or crime I wanted to blog about. And with this new surge in people interested in killers I thought we should start at the beginning. The two words most people get mixed up, myself included. When I first started out reading and researching killers, which was over 20 years ago, I was the same. I didn’t know the difference between psychopath and sociopath. Hell for the longest time I didn’t even know sociopath existed.

What’s the difference?

Psychopaths and sociopaths share a number of characteristics, including a lack of remorse or empathy for others, a lack of guilt or ability to take responsibility for their actions, a disregard for laws or social norms, and fondness for violence. A core feature of both is a deceitful and manipulative nature. But how can we tell them apart?

Sociopaths are normally less emotionally stable and highly impulsive, their behavior tends to be more erratic than psychopaths. When committing crimes, either violent or non-violent, sociopaths will act more on compulsion. And they will lack patience, giving in much more easily to impulsiveness and lacking detailed planning.

Psychopaths, on the other hand, will plan their crimes down to the smallest detail, taking calculated risks to avoid detection. The smart ones will leave few clues that may lead to being caught. Psychopaths don’t get carried away in the moment and make fewer mistakes as a result.

Both act on a range of behaviors, and many psychologists still debate whether the two should be differentiated at all. But for those who do differentiate between the two, one thing is largely agreed upon: psychiatrists use the term psychopathy to illustrate that the cause of the anti-social personality disorder is hereditary. Sociopathy describes behaviors that are the result of a brain injury, or abuse and/or neglect in childhood.

Psychopaths are born and sociopaths are made. Their difference reflects the nature versus nurture debate.

There’s an interesting link between serial killers and psychopaths or sociopath. Of course, not all psychopaths and sociopaths become serial killers, and not all serial killers are psychopaths or sociopaths.

Over the next month or so I am going to pick a serial killers name out of a jar and blog about them. We will go over their childhood upbringing and crimes committed and discuss if they are a psychopath, sociopath or neither. I hope you stick around for True Crime Tuesday.

Next weeks blog topic:

Reading Update

Kell is one of the last Antari—magicians with a rare, coveted ability to travel between parallel Londons; Red, Grey, White, and, once upon a time, Black.

Kell was raised in Arnes—Red London—and officially serves the Maresh Empire as an ambassador, traveling between the frequent bloody regime changes in White London and the court of George III in the dullest of Londons, the one without any magic left to see.

Unofficially, Kell is a smuggler, servicing people willing to pay for even the smallest glimpses of a world they’ll never see. It’s a defiant hobby with dangerous consequences, which Kell is now seeing firsthand.

After an exchange goes awry, Kell escapes to Grey London and runs into Delilah Bard, a cut-purse with lofty aspirations. She first robs him, then saves him from a deadly enemy, and finally forces Kell to spirit her to another world for a proper adventure.

Now perilous magic is afoot, and treachery lurks at every turn. To save all of the worlds, they’ll first need to stay alive

So I am still working my way through A Conjuring of Light by V.E. Schwab. It is the last book in the Darker Shades of Magic trilogy. To prevent spoilers I posted the synopsis for the first book above. But I am going to leave a link to the Goodreads synopsis for A Conjuring of Light at the end of this blog. So my goal for 2019 was to finish the last book in every series I’ve started, loved and have yet to finish. So Darker Shades of Magic trilogy will be my first completed series for 2019…

I am getting close to being half way done with this book. The first half has ripped my heart out a few times already. I’ve shed a few tears for sure. It is amazing how attached you can get to fictional characters. Even ones who are suppose to be villains. I’ve always had a soft spot for villains, well some. Specially if I have a sad background story on them. I’m not sure if Ms. Schwab intended for Holland for be a villain or not but either way I am slowly falling in love with him in this book. Of course Kell and Rhy will always have a spot in my heart. Lila Bard while still a bad ass chick is getting a little on my nerves in this book so far. Hopefully that will change by the end of the book.

The world building is still absolutely amazing. While reading I can picture it all in my head like a movie. That is not an easy task for an author.

Well that is all I have for now. Just wanted to let you know what I’ve been reading lately. I work the rest of this week but off this weekend. Hoping to finish the book then. Still decided if I want to reread Pet Semetary by Stephen King and do a Book vs Movie blog or read some of the new mangas I got. I guess we will see what my mood is. What would you like to see me do?

Reading & Life Update

I know I’ve been a slacker lately. That’s life I guess. I have been pretty busy with work. I was picking up some extra shifts since we were short staffed. For those of you who don’t know I am a Med Aide at a nursing home. Basically I am a legal drug dealer. So this post will be an update on what’s been going on lately and what I am currently reading.

Currently Reading:

One of my reading goals this year was to finish the last book in every series I started, love but am too afraid to finish. So I decided to pick up A Conjuring of Light by V.E. Schwab. I am about 250ish pages in and it has already made me cry a couple times. Ms. Schwab is in my top 5 favorite authors. I have yet to read a book of hers I didn’t love. I will be sad to see this series end when I finish this book. I am completely in love with the characters and world. The magical elements and traveling between the different Londons is so fascinating.

After I finish this book I am thinking of doing one of my Book vs Movie Blogs. I haven’t done one in a while. Since the new Pet Semetary movie came out I am thinking of rereading the book (it’s been well over 10 years since I’ve read it) and then re-watch the original movie and then new one and review them all. I love doing those types of blogs.

Life Update:

Well as mentioned above I have been working a lot. But besides that I have a few other things that have happened in the last couple weeks/months. For starters I finally moved the rest of my stuff over to my new place. So I have bookcases again!!!! 3 in my bedroom and 2 in the living room. In the living rom I have one bookcase on each side of the TV. I plan to hang my Nimbus 2000 broom above the TV. I need to go buy the hooks for it still. I am loving how my place is finally coming together and looking like a home. Got the kids loft beds put together, my new dining room table and chairs got delivered and I got a bed as well.

Bookcases in bedroom

The broom in the corner will go above the TV

New table and chairs. Who wants to come for dinner now?

Taylor’s bed. Antony’s is the same one. Just so I don’t have to post the other picture. I plan to get lights and beanbag chairs for under the beds for sitting areas

and last but not least, my bed!

The other morning I also went to the local animal shelter and rescued 2 kittens. They are estimated to be about 4 months old.

This is Abraxos. Named after Manon Blackbeak’s Wyvern in the Throne of Glass series by Sarah J. Maas. He is a cuddler and climber. Loves being in your face.

This is Scotland. She is named after my favorite country ever. She is feisty and loves to play.

Before I close out this blog I want to give a shout-out to a certain someone who keeps encouraging me to blog/write. He is always telling me he thinks I should write. He may be right. Thanks Jay. It means a lot when you encourage me. I do have an idea for a book that I have been wanting to write for a long time. I think I will work on outlines for it so I am ready for NaNoWriMo in November. Would you like me to post updates on the book writing also? Maybe give little previews for opinions and such?

Well that’s all I got for now. Until next time…….

Off Season by Jack Ketchum review

“September. A beautiful New York editor retreats to a lonely cabin on a ill in the quiet Maine beach town of Dead River-off season-awaiting her sister and friends. Nearby, a savage human family with a taste for flesh lurks in the darkening woods, watching, waiting for the moon to rise and night to fall…

And before too many hours pass, five civilized, sophisticated people and one tired old country sheriff will learn just how primitive we all are beneath the surface…and that there are no limits at all to the will to survive.”

What the fuck did I just read? This was my first Jack Ketchum book and sure as shit won’t be my last. It takes a lot for a horror book to really scare the crap out of me. This one did. In fact last night I was up until like 1am reading it and then was rudely awoken at 3am being chased by creepy cannibals in my nightmares. Yes this book has cannibals in it.

The world building was pretty decent. I got a good picture in my head of the cabin/house Carla rented. Was able to picture the landscape around the area. As far as character building went that was lacking but honestly I didn’t need it. The horror, gore and shear fucked up shit that happened made up for the lack of character building.

I honestly don’t even know what else to say about this book except that it is gross, sick, disturbing, will give you nightmares, will make your skin crawl, might make body parts hurt, and completely fucked up. But highly recommended if you like horror.


What the fu*k happened to her?


OMG I know! Where the hell did I go. My last blog post was November 23, 2018. Since then I have been silent. I didn’t even post my end of the year reading wrap-up like I normally do. I am sorry for that. I honestly do not think I will get to it. I didn’t get as much reading done as I normally do and it wasn’t the best reading year either. I did manage to read a handful of 4 and 5 star books.

My personal life has gotten in the way of my reading life. I am sad but I am ok also. As some of you know me and my kids dad split up and I moved out in June 2018. So I have been working on getting back on my feet. I am working a lot. I am a CNA at a nursing home. I work a lot. But I have managed to find an amazing facility to work at and my co-workers are now my family. I just finished my class to become a CMA (Medication Aide). I take my state test for that on Feb 14th. Happy Valentine’s Day to me! Monday I take the TABES entrance exam for LPN school. Hoping to get into the program from Fall 2019. I am proud of myself. I never thought I could do this, let alone on my own. Which has also proven to be difficult at times.

I have always had issues with being alone. When I’m alone my mind tends to wander and it’s not always a good thing. I tend to think the worst. Even though I was married for almost 8 years, I also felt alone and single for most of those years. I know I should work on me right now, concentrate on school and just love life and my new freedom and family but there is part of me that is freaking out because I am not in a relationship. Gah how do I do this? This last week all I have felt like doing is crying and I can’t find a good reason why I should be. It is probably a mix of things. My Parabaiti suggested starting a journal. To get all my thoughts out of my head. I know when I talk with my people it does help calm me down. So I will try a journal as well. Hopefully it helps. I just hate getting stuck in my own head. You might even seen a blog post of two that deals with all this crap. Who knows maybe someone that is going through something similar will reach out and we can be each others support.

So as far as reading goals for this year goes I don’t really have any. I set my Goodreads goal at 20 books. I will really only have from now until August to get any real reading done. After that my reading will be nursing books. But it will all be worth it when I graduate and become an LPN. I do plan on finishing up that last book in a few series I need to finish. I’ve been scared to finish them because that means the series is over. Other than that I am just going to go with what I am in the mood for.

Well that’s all I got for now. I will try to be around more. Towards the end of the year my blogs might turn more into surviving nursing school and less about books but oh well. Shit happens! Hope you stick around for a wild and crazy 2019 journey! Love you all!

Knightfall season one

So I watched History Channel’s Knightfall. I have been interested in the Knights Templar and I got excited when this show was about them. As someone who is a history junkie it can be difficult to watch historical fiction shows sometimes. So let’s get into my thoughts. I will start with my likes…

I love the drama in the show. The story line was well done and I didn’t get lost. There is a romance story line but it did not take over the story. It was woven in perfectly. The action scenes were amazing. Not too bloody but a perfect example of how battles were faught in that time period. I don’t know much about the Knights Templar yet so I don’t know how accurate they were with some things. But I do know that this actual story line is fictionalized. Some of the Knights Templar characters might have been real people but their story line is fiction. Which they do state before each episode begins. I do plan on reading some books I own and learn more about them. I will talk about those books at the end of this blog. As for the story line of Joan I of Navarre, wife of King Philip IV of France, there is not much known about her. I don’t think she would have cheated on the King but who knows. I could be wrong. But in any case I think they did alright with her. She died at a very young age, mid 30s, but it’s not known how exactly she died. Some same childbirth and some speculate that her husband, King Philip IV, killed her. I like how they ended her in the show.

Now for my dislikes…..

Ugh once again they screw up history. Yes I know this show was fictionalized but… can still get a good story line by sticking to the facts. Princess Isabella, daughter of Philip IV and Joan, was done so wrong. They really fictionalized her story line. She never intended to marry Louis, they have her way older than she was when she did marry. She was 12 years old when she was sent to England to marry Edward
II, son of King Edward I. There was already enough drama and good story line in the show that they could have left her more historically accurate.

All in all I did enjoy the show. While it’s hard to look past historical inaccuracies due to me being a history nerd, I am looking forward to season 2. Well done History Channel! You didn’t fuck up too bad 😂😂😂😂


4/5 Stars

Here are two books I own that are about the Knights Templar

Drownings at Nantes

During the Reign of Terror, Jean-Baptiste Carrier, a member of the Revolutionary Tribunal, was sent to Nantes to suppress a revolt by anti-revolutionaries. Later, in his capacity as the représentant en mission, Carrier set up what was called the “Legion of Marat.” The Legion of Marat was composed of soldiers who received “ten livres a day.” Their job was to watch the inhabitants of Nantes and give mandates of arrest against persons they suspected of being disloyal to the revolution. Moreover, the soldiers could search any suspect’s house and request doors be broken down if inhabitants did not willing open them. 

Jean-Baptiste Carrier, Courtesy of Bibliothèque nationale de France Drownings at Nantes
Jean-Baptiste Carrier

In addition to the Legion of Marat, Carrier was responsible to set up a tribunal and conduct “fair” trials for the accused. Once prisoners were found guilty, the Legion of Marat was responsible to quickly dispose of the guilty. But because so many prisoners were found guilty, Carrier invented a variety of disposal methods. Among the disposal methods was a firing squad where the condemned were lined up and shot one by one. However, there were other extremely torturous ways to execute people.

One of Carrier’s most unpleasant and sadistic execution methods was mass drownings (noyades), which Carrier and his minions nicknamed “immersions,” “bathing parties,” or “national baptisms.” The first mass of drownings involved Catholic priests, called the “refractory clergy.” The priests had been arrested and held at Saint-Clément Convent before being transferred to Nantes. On the evening of 16 November 1793, a special customized barge was taken to the docks and ninety condemned priests ordered to be drowned at once. The barges were railed off so that the condemned priests could not jump overboard. When the barge was “at a certain distance, valves in the sides of the vessel were opened, and … [the barge] sunk.”

If the drownings were not dramatic enough, “boats with guards followed in the wake of the ship, and whenever a priest appeared struggling with the waves, he became a target for ball practise.” Despite the guards best efforts to kill the priests, however, three escaped. The three priests were rescued by sailors, but the sailors were forced to return the priests to Carrier. The next night the three priests were taken with more priests and drown. After the drownings, a great feast “costing forty thousand livres” was held on the barge. Someone reported that Carrier celebrated by toasting “in the very boat, used for the drowning of the unhappy victims.”

This was the first wave in a series of executions that continued until February 1794. However, it was not just priests that Carrier executed in Nantes: Old men, pregnant women, and young children were killed. No one was safe, as every age, every sex, and every class of people were drowned and done so without distinction. Moreover, it was said of Carrier that he did his work so well, “the Loire was poisoned by corpses, that its use for drinking and cooking was prohibited.”

Sometimes Carrier’s drownings also had a sexual component. For instance, at first, people were drowned in their clothes until one day Carrier announced something new called “Republican marriages.” Republican marriages were celebrated in the following way:

“[It involved] stripping boys and girls, then lashing them together face to face, and … turning them round in a most ingenious sort of waltz to national music, until they reached the river or field of execution, where they were either cast into the Loire, or massacred by a detachment of the armée Revolutionnaire.”

A gunner named Wailly was aboard La Samaritain when he and his friends witnessed some of the drownings at Nantes. Wailly left a first-person account. He claimed he witnessed “the most horrible carnage” and heard the most “horrible cries.” He also noted that after people’s deaths, those that perished became prey to their executioners. The dead were stripped of “their clothes, their jewelry, their assignats,” and everything sold to the highest bidder.

Accounts of the number of victims at Nantes varies. However, according to the journalist and historian, Louis-Marie Prudhomme, the victims under Carrier amounted to 32,000. He provided a partial breakdown, which is shown in the table below and lists how 10,244 victims were executed:

The residents of Nantes watched as their friends, neighbors, and relatives were caught up in Carrier’s net. Finally, they began to turn against him, but about this same time, Carrier was recalled to Paris. A few month’s later Robespierre fell from power, and a critical look at Carrier’s conduct in Nantes began. At the same time, prisoners Carrier had brought to Paris from Nantes were examined, acquitted, and released. This lead to further indignation and denunciations against Carrier and his actions at Nantes.

Maximilien Robespierre, Courtesy of Wikipedia
Maximilien Robespierre

On 3 September 1794 justice was finally served against Carrier. He was arrested for his iniquities at Nantes, and all sorts of accusations of inhumanity were leveled against him. Carrier was as unemotional as he had been vigorous in drowning those resistant to the revolution in Nantes. He brazenly denounced the accusations saying:

“I took but little share in the policing of Nantes; I was only there in passing … Hence I have little information to offer … I know little or nothing of the accused.”

The jury thought otherwise and voted unanimously for his execution. He was guillotined on 16 December 1794.

The Crown seasons 1 & 2 (spoilers)

I just finished the second season the the Netflix show The Crown. I started out loving the show. I enjoyed the show throughout both seasons. Learned a few things I didn’t know before watching the show. I did google some things to make sure Hollywood wasn’t stretching things or adding things for ratings.

For starters I had NO idea that Queen Elizabeth II’s Uncle, Edward VIII, visited Hitler and a training camp for Nazis. I need to read a lot more about him and this to know if he was always a Nazi/Hitler supporter or if it was just because he wanted peace to remain between the two countries.

Realm leader Adolf Hitler (R) with the Duke and Duchess of Windsor on the recent occasion when they visited the Bavarian alpine retreat of the German dictator.

Next up is Prince Philip and his family. I had no clue that his sister, Cecilie, and her husband had joined the Nazi party. Nor did I know that Philip was raised by them in Germany. I want to read more about this as well. I do get the feeling that Philip was NEVER a supporter of anything Nazi or Hitler related. He did join the Royal Navy not long after the death of his sister.

Prince Philip pictured (2nd right in the first full row), in a funeral procession in 1937. On the right, in the uniform of the SA (Hitler’ militia that was known as the ‘storm division’ or ‘Brownshirts’), walks Prince Philipp von Hessen, brother of Philip’s brother-in-law, Prince Christoph, who is next in line in full SS regalia. Philip’s two surviving German brothers-in-law complete the row: Prince Gottfried of Hohenlohe-Langenburg and Prince Berthold of Baden. In the row behind, wearing a deistinctive Royal Navy bicorn hat, is Lord Louis Mountbatten, Philip’s uncle. Through the damp streets of Darmstadt, western Germany, a funeral procession trudges its way slowly past the thousands of mourners who have come to pay their respects to the seven members of the aristocratic Hesse-Darmstadt family killed in a plane crash. As the cortege sweeps past, many give the Heil Hitler salute to the uniformed Nazis, including an SS officer, in the parade. Also in the procession that day in November 1937 is a handsom young man, just 16, in a long, dark overcoat. Flanked by German relatives in SS and Brownshirt uniforms, he has come to mourn the death of his elder sister. Who would have thought that just a decade later, this sombre young prince would become consort of the future Queen of England.

Towards the end of season 2 I started to feel guilty for watching the show. It was strange. I know Elizabeth and Philip had problems in their marriage, just like all marriages. I also know Hollywood probably made it seem way worse than it was but at the same time I feel like it was digging to much into their personal lives just for ratings. All of this makes sense in my head and I am trying to get it to make sense in this blog. Let me try…….

I recently watched the first 2 seasons the the show Victoria which is about the life of Queen Victoria. I did not feel guilty watching that show as it dove into her personal life because well…she’s dead and has been since 1901. So I feel like enough time has passed. It’s history. Queen Elizabeth II and Philip are still very much alive and in the public eye. I am sure they didn’t ask for their personal matters to be made into a TV show. I am not saying the show should not have been made. There are a lot of interesting things to learn. I just think they may have taken it a little too far, too deep on the areas of their marriage and allegations of cheating. There is ABSOLUTELY NO proof Philip cheated on Elizabeth and frankly if he did it is NONE of our damn business.

I hope that made sense to you. Sometimes I am horrible at getting my thoughts to paper, or in this case a computer.

Has anyone else watched The Crown yet? What do you think of the show?

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